Inadequacy

Well I have to admit, I fell off the bandwagon. I meant to lose the weight, but I let my Crohn's problems and general stress get in the way of my weight loss goals.

Anyway,  I finally moved out of my parent's house (yes, I was 26 and living with the rents still. This day of age it's pretty common though) and I have a really good job and stuff but lately have been really depressed.

I have so many people that love and care about me, and I know I shouldn't feel this way, but I do. I feel like finally I almost have everything in my life that I want, but I missing one thing.

It's weird, but I find myself relating to the characters of Sex in the City more and more. I used to think that show was annoying, but now that I'm older I really appreciate the characters and the questions it raises about being a women in modern society. Dealing with the expectations of being an independent women while trying to find the perfect relationship and start a family... it's very overwhelming.

I'm trying to just ignore that feeling of inadequacy and acknowledge everything I do have.

New Video Idea!

Hello!

I have to admit, with the stress from my job, my health and other things I haven't really had any time to post. Also, my diet plan has totally been de-railed. :(

I'm hoping to get back on track. Going to work out later on tonight and I'm going to go to the grocery store to get my diet back on track as well.

Anyway, a friend of mine actually saw my first video and encouraged me to make another one. I'm currently in the process of writing/researching for a new video on female professional gamers (or lack there of)

Anyway, I hope to post more soon, sorry about the hiatus and look forward to a new video!

Thanks!

26 pounds before I'm 26 - Day I forgot to keep track and I don't feel like counting

What' s up my 4 subscribed readers?

I haven't really posted anything lately. To be honest, I've been sick and depressed.

Christmas was good, except Christmas night I got sick. I've been having stomach issues and a sinus infection.

My career is also kind not going quite as planned at the moment either.

Everything has got me feeling pretty depressed and unmotivated.

I'm hoping that 2012 will be a better year. Help to get me on track health wise, career wise. I'm hoping to make some appointment for Grad School advisement this week.

Good thing is though the holidays didn't take their toll on my diet. I actually lost a few pounds. I'm currently down to 146. I'm hoping to get back to working out in a regular schedule in the next few days. I'm thinking about taking up a spinning class as well as Zumba and swing dancing on the weekends.

I'm going to make sure 2012 is a better year than 2011 for sure. :) Better attitude and persistence will pay off I'm sure of it.